I’ve been feeling melancholy and, I realise now, I’ve pushed myself a bit much. It’s all right, I’ve got over it but I did lean on a friend for a few minutes this afternoon and was glad to. I’ll email him later and be cheerful. I didn’t cry, anyway. Though it would have been all right if I had, he’s a good enough friend.
There are always books left over from a stall of course, and I took them along to the local second-hand bookshop yesterday. Letting go was necessary but quite hard. I then decided to have lunch at a local restaurant, which was nice but a bit lonely as I was the only person sitting alone. I bought myself a nice glass jug at Crocks.
I didn’t really sleep on Sunday night, but made up for it last night, it was lovely. My friend, who I leant on, compared notes on the subject. He tends to be awake for a while every night and was dismayed, a year or two ago, when I told him it was a classic sign of stress. Today, I told him the theory that it can be a natural pattern, to have two periods of sleep rather than one – but it is stress, with him, I know. Too many people take their work home with them, emotionally as well as physically.
I gave up worrying about waking up at night a while ago, figuring that if I was awake, it was because I didn’t need the sleep. I’m sure that’s not true for everyone, but it works for me.
A little nap after lunch helps too…
i like what tim said! 🙂
sounds as if you’re finding new ways of being, not easy as you know, but moving forward. be well, sweetpea. xoxoxoxo
Put on “Let it Go” from Frozen at max volume . Always works for me.
That’s my attitude too, mostly, Tim – but it’s the wee small hours when you fret, if there’s anything to fret about. He said he can’t sleep in the daytime, he wakes with a raging headache. I said he needs more practice.
I won’t find peace until it’s all done, Sharifa, but that isn’t to say that the doing is easy. I’m coping better during, but still have a wobble afterwards. I cooked a lovely, soothing supper to show myself that I cared!
When one has a 6 year old granddaughter, ‘Let It Go’ is sung at max volume anyway, Rog, as I suspect you know. It certainly has its effect.