It seems unlikely, but the baby is still not actually overdue, but due on Monday. We were all so sure he would be early. Weeza and Phil have been enjoying their time off by going to the cinema each day and relaxing.
We didn’t go out in the end, except to buy a few ingredients (which is a favourite word of Zerlina’s) for lunch tomorrow, so ate at home. The electricity was off when we arrived back after shopping, but it didn’t matter, there was nothing we wanted it for except, in my case, to boil a kettle for a cup of tea. It came back on at 4.58 pm – I’ve always found that they are punctilious, if they say 5 o’clock it will be no later. My good friend Sybil phoned to offer to take over my sidesman duties tomorrow morning at 8 o’clock, since I have Zerlina. I accepted gratefully. I’m still down for the 11 o’clock service, I think that Andy, who did the rota, forgot to put down a second person for later – I used to prepare the rota and it’s very easy to do that. I will go along and get set up and then may be able to leave someone else to clear away.
I wish I could relinquish all these regular church obligations I have to admit – I’ve been doing it for so long and there’s nothing about it that I find enjoyable or satisfying. I’ve always done voluntary work, since I was a child and was ferried around by my mother to help with Meals on Wheels. It’s a part of life for me, but I don’t want to keep doing each job forever. I think that, to remain enthusiastic and fresh, it’s better to do something else every few years. That seems to be accepted everywhere but in the church, where it’s all a life sentence. Next Sunday, I’ll both be playing the organ and making and serving coffee, having arranged the flowers the day before. I’ve come off the PCC, but am still roped in every time there is a discussion, and I’m the contact with the architect and builder. I’m bored stiff with it. I have no plans to move house, but if ever I did, I’d not admit to playing any instrument and profess to be far too shy to read a lesson and hopeless at organising anything. If only I didn’t have to take such drastic action to have any chance of breaking free.