In the last couple of weeks, I’ve finally relaxed completely. I kept August as clear as I could, but it’s only been since Gus’s birth that, I can now look back and realise, all tension has drained away. As a result, I’m not fretting about the work that September will bring, but looking forward to it. Which is a bit stupidly naive for someone as old as I am, I’ll be grumbling in no time!
Having said that, I remember that there was a whole set of papers that was due to be emailed out this weekend. It will wait until tomorrow. I’m still on holiday until then. I lay in bed reading for an hour this morning before getting up, it was like old times. It still puzzles me that, after half a century of reading voraciously, I hardly read books at all at present. I read a fair bit, two newspapers per day, quite a number of blogs and a few pages of two or three books, but I used to read anything up to two books most days and that’s gone completely by the board of late. I’m up to page 233 of the book I started last night, however, so maybe things will revert to normal again.
In my end-of-season enthusiasm, I’m filled with determination to keep some control over what I do – that is, to do what I would like to and not let the obligations take over from the pleasure, as tends to occur. If there’s too much on and something has to give, it’s the social and pleasurable events that are lost every time. I really shouldn’t let that happen. Actually, I know what it is, I start the autumn well and then, as the days get shorter and darker, I have less energy and being sociable doesn’t quite keep its appeal. But it’s wrong and I should make the effort, or just give apologies for a few more meetings. I can’t quite remember the last time I went to a concert, the theatre or the cinema in Norwich, I didn’t go to the gardening club at all last year and I only managed a few Nadfas lectures which, considering I belong to two societies, is a bit daft.
If anyone has an iPad/iPhone and is looking for a good puzzle app, do try Aqueduct. It starts easy but ends up very tricky indeed. The last half-dozen levels took me hours but, having completed the whole game, I’ve reset it and started again. The free version, Aqueduct 101, has enough levels for you to know if you like it. I don’t think it’s available on Android at present.