It was such a joy to see Lena again, she’s a lovely girl and I miss her. For those of you who don’t know, she is a German/French girl who lives in Berlin and she lived with us for several months, a couple of years ago, while studying at the local high school. She’s now in her last year at school and her English class is over in London this week, so I went up to Town to meet her.
I haven’t been to London for some months, not since meeting Wink at the Matisse cut-out exhibition back in the spring and then I just walked through the City to Tate Modern to meet her, I haven’t been in the West End for a year, I suppose. I love London, I feel so at home there. I’d never live in a place where it would be too inconvenient to go there for the day – a couple of hours away is about right for me. It’s tiring, mind you. I remember, when Weeza had been living in Islington for about a year, I asked her about the theatres and exhibitions she’d visited. She said that, with a full-time job, just living was enough for her. She adjusted in time, of course, and took full benefit of her years there.
Lena last visited us a year ago and gave a warm invitation to visit her and I promised I would, but I haven’t done so yet. First, there was Wink’s operation and I went to stay with her for a total of three weeks and then I was looking after Russell. But I really will soon, it’s all right to get away for a few days. I don’t feel that I can have a longer holiday while I still live here, but the time will come when I will be free to travel. Russell didn’t want to, which I regretted immensely, I really wish he had. We were both busy here with various things, mostly separately, and holidays together would have been lovely. He wouldn’t go, and that was that.
So, in future, I shall go alone or with my sister or with friends, I’ll see how it goes. I have offers already, which is great. There are so many places I’ve never been – in this country, I can take Ben with me, if I can find places to accept him, and I will get to the Continent from Norwich airport via Schiphol. Lena always enthuses about her family’s holiday home in the south of France, I’ve never been to Rome, nor to Germany, I’ve visited Poland once and loved it – there is vast choice and I would like to take the opportunities that come my way. I am looking forward to feeling able to look forward again – I won’t be there for a while yet, but I’ve been anxious for such a long time. I don’t mind if I’m not happy, but I would love to be tranquil.