it’s not that I don’t have the wish to blog, but that I’m tired out by the time I come to the computer and I go to bed instead. Even now, I keep mistyping and have to correct myself, and normally I’m an accurate touch-typist. Which was one of the more useful – obviously useful, that is – things I learned at school. I’m sure I’ve blogged before that I got bored with French and gave it up, they didn’t know what to do with me instead (because they were very nice and just accommodated us, unless you smoked when you were instantly expelled) so sent me to the B Stream’s Business School lessons. I changed my mind later and took French again, to A Level, but I’d learnt touch-typing in the meantime as a useful extra. Anyway. When I’m tired, I am erratic.

I think it’s mostly the heat that’s tired me, but I’m also going to up the protein in my diet, in case that’s lacking. Whilst I think I eat healthily, I suppose it’s largely vegetables and fruit, because it’s too hot to cook much.

However, Wink and I have been getting things done. I’ve brought most of Tim’s things up from the barn, there are just a few pieces of furniture, a rug and some books, lamps and kitchen stuff. I’ve shampooed the rugs I have brought and put them here and there in the house. It brings him here to me and makes me miss him more acutely, but I want to hold on to him as far as I can. We’ve been sorting out papers and so on, which I can only cope with for an hour or so, but we’re making progress and I’m very grateful to her.

We met Weeza and co for lunch yesterday and the whole family is coming over next Sunday, along with our old friend Graham and his wife Sandra, who moved to New Zealand about 20 years ago. It was Graham who helped me so much with sorting out, the year after Russell died. i’ll always be so grateful to him for that, it was so kind. But we like them anyway – as soon as I told everyone, they all wanted to come over and see them. So a big family lunch it is, there will be 16 of us.