– which means, in my case, extreme laziness. Blogger Help is terribly informative, but it’ll be much better use of my time to wait until Ro is looking relaxed and ask him to do the stuff I can’t be bothered to learn to understand. In the meantime, sorry there’s a long and rambling piece on the right all about Me And My Family, but new paragraphs don’t show and I don’t know how to hide part of it either.
‘how do we know’ gave a list of things he wants to do, to make his life very happy. What’s your list, he asked (not just me, of course, everybody). I thought about it. And realised that even thinking about writing a wish-list made me feel anxious and pressured as, if I really want something, I need to get on and do it, as time, while not as yet an implacable enemy, could not be said to be altogether on my side. So, instead of the 101 things suggested or even the 13 he gave, I’ve got 2 for now. Play the clarinet as well as I could 10 years ago. And build my brick wall.
I used to take clarinet lessons, having decided, at the age of about 37, to learn a new instrument. I loved it, became quite good and discovered it is wonderful exercise for a healthy chest (yeah, read that how you will). But, you know how it is, after a few years I let things drift and stopped the lessons and now my embouchure is not what it was and nor is the health of my chest. I need to practise for 2 hours a day for a month and then join a band/orchestra/small musical group – whoever will have me, to force myself to stick at it. I really want to do this but it’s the 2 hours a day that is holding me back right now. Even a daily commitment is beyond me now, but it is something I will do.
But maybe not before building the wall. I’ve written about this before, but to save you (or me) looking it up, will briefly explain that I want to have a partly walled vegetable garden and, never having laid a brick until now, intend to build one 5 foot high and 100 foot long. This is also an entirely achievable ambition which I expect to take me two years (I could get a brickie in and he’d do it in a few days but that isn’t the point of it) and I will start when the Sage, who is a perfectionist, has selected the bricks.
I have, in fact, a third ambition; that is, a 5-year plan to come off all committees. This plan is now in its fifth year and I’m about to come off the first of them, which shows I’m not too good at this. But it’s a start. The rest of the committee want to have a party to commemorate my leaving after 18 years. I say commemorate and not celebrate, but maybe it’s just as well I’m going before I’m pushed.